Dana Barbieri

I should preface this post to say when I began it, there was no ease…site running slow….so I went for a walk.

“Quality easy breathes life. Quality easy creates a sense of expansion.”-Danielle Laporte

Many, many times I have waited in anticipation. Will they call? Will I get the acceptance letter? Will I hear “you got the job!”.

There was always an attachment to the outcome. It if it was Yahoo! or if it wasn’t as hoped for, well then an upset.

Just recently I have been o.k. with the rejection, with something not turning out as hoped for or expected.

It has taken 39 years to get here. I watched this movie again and was reminded of how you can’t force things.

How many of us live by striving, trying to force something that just wasn’t meant to be?
I am done with striving. Which by definition means:

1. Make great efforts to achieve or obtain something.
2. Struggle or fight vigorously.

It is so much easier to live from a place of ease.
Where you aren’t forcing something into being. Where you are allowing and going with the flow. Accepting what is and loving it. It doesn’t mean you don’t try or you don’t reach but you pay attention to what feels right, you are guided by your feelings. It is about quality easy. Things will flow then you won’t be in a place of struggle or frustration.

It is more loving to you and more loving to others. You feel better. So if you don’t get the call or the letter or whatever it is be o.k. with it. It wasn’t meant to be, at least not for now and perhaps what is meant to be will be infinitely better.

Some days I have know idea how to write a blog post. Will I say too much? Not enough? Sometimes I have so much to say with no real formal way I want to say it. Things I want you to know, things I want to share, things I hope will help you, things that help me just by writing them.

When I was back at F.I.T. I took an American Lit class, my teacher tried to coax me into switching my major because she liked the way I wrote. I actually enjoyed writing. Prior to that I tried to get into a creative writing class. No luck. I couldn’t understand what the Am. Lit professor even liked. I still know that I don’t craft words well but I enjoy reading words that others craft beautifully.

So this is turning into a rambling of sorts. Sorry about that. Maybe I should switch to a list-

-was hit by another car this a.m., just a dent, no one hurt, but i realize i am not good in those situations, they throw me off
-going to go make this soon, was planning to anyway
-wondering about blogs…. what makes people read the ones they do? great photos, connection, the way they write,inspiration would love to hear why you read what you do? oh, and if you have a blog pleeeeeeaaaassseee add a subscribe via email link, it is so much easier for the reader

-i titled this post dreamer so let’s talk dreams…

i have so many

*like to take pictures like her, with a camera like her, i am really enjoying her blog, so pretty and comfy, makes me want to redo this one, which i started to so please excuse the look

*i want to have/start a local studio space where you can go and everyone knows your name, and you can draw or paint or crochet or knit or embroider or just hang around and laugh, eat some cupcakes or drink tea, it would have to be BEAUTIFUL and there would be a whole wall of inspiration, lots of tables, one with collage stuff, one with drawing tools and paper, one with paint and brushes, another with yarn and embroidery, it would be big and bright and ideally it would be free for all (it is a dream remember?), there would be inspiring women who would give talks and workshops, lovely music, plants, lots of books of course, we would have art shows, every community needs something like this, it would help so many… do you have one?

*i want to, well i have, create surface designs and print them on fabric, cards, plates, etc….

*i want to travel

*to take workshops

*to write a book

*to paint and have an art show

*to create a book on color

that probably isn’t it but it is alot i would love to hear some of yours?